have been fun, slack, busy and super funny.
After GP cts, went down to match supports for first time since i left ri (and entered rj). Rugby, great atmosphere, thrilling match, great players. Then on wed nite, went to zhuang's house to watch champ league finals, despite maths assignment not done. On thurs afternoon, went for soccer finals. Great attacking football. 1-0 in favour of green, black and white. Overwhelmed the blues.
Then on fri, went to parliament house. Learned so much about those stuff. Then went to sim lim to get flight simulator.
Sat- Founder's day. I feel happy yet pressured to perform well in the future. My parents were proud of me, and i dun wanna see them down cos of me. i wun ever do stupid things that will hurt them. and stupid things do not only mean academic stuff. I mean i wun do crimes.
Saturday, May 26, 2007
Sunday, May 20, 2007
Pictures, I love them!
Iberia A340 cockpit landing in Madrid. Possibly the best office in the world.
"hey Captain! you're in Singapore Changi Airport and you've got 2 SIA B747 waiting for you to scoot over, and I suggest you do it quick"
Family still important yeah.
Saturday, May 19, 2007
Thursday, May 17, 2007
Current troubles and future careers
Never, have I in my blog, wrote about my emotions before. But today i will. Today's blog will not have humour. It will tell my current feelings (mostly anger, worries and turmoil) towards myself and my future.
Today was a bad day. I knew it. I could predict days just like predicting the weather. It was a cloudy day, filled with dark clouds. I knew it was gonna be bad.
First, I am getting quite anxious about my MOE Pre-U scholarship application. Because MOE said the award of the scholarship will be in early May, and it's already mid May. The signs are not good for me, obviously. And then Zhuang asked me, what is the purpose of the scholarship, and I couldn't give him an answer? Afterall, my school fees are already covered by EESIS. Was it pride? Was it prestige? What was it for? To boast? **** it man. I dunno.
Secondly, I lost my water bottle. The black 500 ml water bottle from SCO which have stayed by my side for 4 years. I just lost it, and now I dun feel uncomfortable without it. Which makes me wonder, should I pursue a degree with an overseas university? Will I be able to part, for 3-4 years, with all my possessions, my home, my family, my friends? I dunno.
Thirdly, I got back physics test. OK I didnt fail the test itself. But i failed my personal expectations. I really thought I would own this test, because I found that I could do all the questions, and had about 10 min left to check through all my answers. But I didn't. I was careless, complacent and pure stupid. Maybe this is a good setback for me. It has humbled me deeply. Which made me think of my future career...
I made many careless mistakes. There were questions which required qualitative explanations, and I did not give elaborate answers. I was thinking in another dimension. Mixed signals. There was the v1 v2 question, which i though was quite tough, but I felt I did it right. Well, yes, I did it right. The method was correct. But I forgot the add in a square. Because I forgot to write a small little digit, 2, on the top right hand corner of the value, I got 2 marks deducted for nothing. For nothing. Which made me wonder, can I EVER be a good pilot? Perhaps not. Imagine if I were to pilot an A380, carrying a full payload of >500 passengers. Imagine, then, if I carelessly calculated the take-off weight wrongly. OMG. Air crash. Forgetting the square the value for physics test has resulted in 2 meagre marks being deucted. So what? But if pilots add some numbers wrongly, it will result in death. Death.
Today I sat on the top deck of the SBS bus on my way home. I felt in control, being in front of the entire bus. I felt like a captain of a vessel. I felt good, but when I thought about my mistakes, I realised, that perhaps, this dream of mine will never come true.
In 2 weeks time I will be returning to RI for a day to receive some small prizes. But now, looking at my results during the 5 months in JC, I feel disgraced. I wonder if I deserve any prize at all. I wonder if I will screw up my A levels, and then ruin my life ahead. I wonder if my presence there will disgrace fellow prize winners like Yeong Li Qian or Tan Juanhe. Oh man. I feel like **** now.
When I talked to my dad about careers, I asked him which job would fit me? Which job would enable me to truly make a difference? I dun want a job in an office doing financial stuff where you turn up looking as normal as 1.5 million others, wearing a tie and black pants and one colour long sleeved shirts and leather shoes, and then working rom 9-6. I dun want an ordinary job( although it may be important).
I know deep in his heart, my dad wants me to continue the work he has built up over the past 20 over years. He does accounts, and I know he wants me to study accounts also. Which I why I respect my dad a lot.He never forces you to do something he knows you dun wanna do. Which is why he respected my decision to do geog instead of econs when I made my decision last year. And I respect him for that.
I once said I will pursue a careers in 4 industries. It still is, and I will tell you why today:
1. Aviation- Do you know why I love planes more than anything? Because I love the sky. I wanna soar through the clouds. The modern jet is a miracle. The wright brothers have invented a miracle machine.
And why do I love commercial jets more than fighter jets? Because I hate violence. I hate war. I hate noise coming from shootings. And I will never be able to pilot a plane to drop bombs over others. Can you imagine how the pilot, Colonel Paul Tibberts, of the B-29, Enolga Gay, which dropped Little Boy over Hiroshima, must have felt at that time?
So why then do I love commercial jets carryong so many passengers? Because every single one of the passengers are on that plane for a reason. Some are returning home to see their families after years of studying abroad. Some are departing their home countries to seek a better life in a foreign country. Some are rushing home from overseas to see their dying father for the last time? Some are doctors rushing to another country to perform an emergency surgery for a dying patient. Some are patients going overseas to seek medical help from renowned doctors. Some are just returning home after a nice vacation. Some are businessmen rushing overseas to meet an important client whose signature on a dotted line would determine bankrupcy or prosperity. Without the plane, these people would never have the chance to all that. They would never been able to travel so easily and so purposefully.
Which is exactly why I wanna pilot the plane will be take people to places they want to be. And I wanna walk in the airport in the pilot uniform, with the dark coat and hat, looking cool and all.
"Singapore Changi airport Control tower, SQ 030 B777, requesting for landing, runway 02L."
"Permission to land, runway 02L, wind conditions 20km/h northeast."
"Roger. Landing. SQ030 landing runway 02L"
"I have control."
"Minimum"
"100"
"50"
"30"
"20"
"10"
"Landed"
2. Law- Have you ever seen people being seriously bullied for something they did not do? I am not talking about school bullying. Those are trivial and unimportant. I am talking about people who suffer injustice in society, people are suffer because they are bullied. I want to represent these people. Which is why, if I ever become a lawyer, I want to specialise in ligitation. I want to free the innocent. Ok, this sounds good, but is it really possible? Non. Nan des. No way. Bu ke nen. In law, cheating lawyers are as common as nitrogen molecules in air. And they stink. They cheat to win big bucks for their bald fat executive clients who pay them by the hour. And I wanna fight these useless lawyers and their faggot clients. How I wish I could be the prosecutor doing the TT Durai case. I am gonna serve some real justice. And I wanna walk out of the supreme court, with my client beside me, in a nice black suit and neat tie, announcing to the media that the innocent has been acquitted, and that justice have been served. How nice.
3. Academics- If I ever come a lecturer, I wanna be an outstanding one teaching geography. And I want to specialise in vulcanology and seismology. This is because I want to save lives. Nevado del Ruiz, Columbia. At around 9pm on November 13, 1985, the great volcano erupted, engulfing the nearby city of Armero with its powerful mudflows. 23000 people were buried alive. Only a few weeks earlier, scientists predicted the eruption of the volcano. somehow the report was shelved. Yet a simple evacuation could have saved thousands. On the ruins of Armero, volcanologists vowed "never again". I want to be part of the team that will study such hazards and save people from grave peril.
4. Public service- I want to serve the country and its people. Ok, maybe this job doesnt look as glamerous, but it is an important one.
So how? If I cant even pass the A levels, I can forget all about it all.
P.S. This is, I think, the first time I used vulgarities in my blog.
"We'll carry on." Note the hard work the video maker has put into making this video, it looks as though the lions were singing. Thanks to DrewTheWolf from YouTube.
Today was a bad day. I knew it. I could predict days just like predicting the weather. It was a cloudy day, filled with dark clouds. I knew it was gonna be bad.
First, I am getting quite anxious about my MOE Pre-U scholarship application. Because MOE said the award of the scholarship will be in early May, and it's already mid May. The signs are not good for me, obviously. And then Zhuang asked me, what is the purpose of the scholarship, and I couldn't give him an answer? Afterall, my school fees are already covered by EESIS. Was it pride? Was it prestige? What was it for? To boast? **** it man. I dunno.
Secondly, I lost my water bottle. The black 500 ml water bottle from SCO which have stayed by my side for 4 years. I just lost it, and now I dun feel uncomfortable without it. Which makes me wonder, should I pursue a degree with an overseas university? Will I be able to part, for 3-4 years, with all my possessions, my home, my family, my friends? I dunno.
Thirdly, I got back physics test. OK I didnt fail the test itself. But i failed my personal expectations. I really thought I would own this test, because I found that I could do all the questions, and had about 10 min left to check through all my answers. But I didn't. I was careless, complacent and pure stupid. Maybe this is a good setback for me. It has humbled me deeply. Which made me think of my future career...
I made many careless mistakes. There were questions which required qualitative explanations, and I did not give elaborate answers. I was thinking in another dimension. Mixed signals. There was the v1 v2 question, which i though was quite tough, but I felt I did it right. Well, yes, I did it right. The method was correct. But I forgot the add in a square. Because I forgot to write a small little digit, 2, on the top right hand corner of the value, I got 2 marks deducted for nothing. For nothing. Which made me wonder, can I EVER be a good pilot? Perhaps not. Imagine if I were to pilot an A380, carrying a full payload of >500 passengers. Imagine, then, if I carelessly calculated the take-off weight wrongly. OMG. Air crash. Forgetting the square the value for physics test has resulted in 2 meagre marks being deucted. So what? But if pilots add some numbers wrongly, it will result in death. Death.
Today I sat on the top deck of the SBS bus on my way home. I felt in control, being in front of the entire bus. I felt like a captain of a vessel. I felt good, but when I thought about my mistakes, I realised, that perhaps, this dream of mine will never come true.
In 2 weeks time I will be returning to RI for a day to receive some small prizes. But now, looking at my results during the 5 months in JC, I feel disgraced. I wonder if I deserve any prize at all. I wonder if I will screw up my A levels, and then ruin my life ahead. I wonder if my presence there will disgrace fellow prize winners like Yeong Li Qian or Tan Juanhe. Oh man. I feel like **** now.
When I talked to my dad about careers, I asked him which job would fit me? Which job would enable me to truly make a difference? I dun want a job in an office doing financial stuff where you turn up looking as normal as 1.5 million others, wearing a tie and black pants and one colour long sleeved shirts and leather shoes, and then working rom 9-6. I dun want an ordinary job( although it may be important).
I know deep in his heart, my dad wants me to continue the work he has built up over the past 20 over years. He does accounts, and I know he wants me to study accounts also. Which I why I respect my dad a lot.He never forces you to do something he knows you dun wanna do. Which is why he respected my decision to do geog instead of econs when I made my decision last year. And I respect him for that.
I once said I will pursue a careers in 4 industries. It still is, and I will tell you why today:
1. Aviation- Do you know why I love planes more than anything? Because I love the sky. I wanna soar through the clouds. The modern jet is a miracle. The wright brothers have invented a miracle machine.
And why do I love commercial jets more than fighter jets? Because I hate violence. I hate war. I hate noise coming from shootings. And I will never be able to pilot a plane to drop bombs over others. Can you imagine how the pilot, Colonel Paul Tibberts, of the B-29, Enolga Gay, which dropped Little Boy over Hiroshima, must have felt at that time?
So why then do I love commercial jets carryong so many passengers? Because every single one of the passengers are on that plane for a reason. Some are returning home to see their families after years of studying abroad. Some are departing their home countries to seek a better life in a foreign country. Some are rushing home from overseas to see their dying father for the last time? Some are doctors rushing to another country to perform an emergency surgery for a dying patient. Some are patients going overseas to seek medical help from renowned doctors. Some are just returning home after a nice vacation. Some are businessmen rushing overseas to meet an important client whose signature on a dotted line would determine bankrupcy or prosperity. Without the plane, these people would never have the chance to all that. They would never been able to travel so easily and so purposefully.
Which is exactly why I wanna pilot the plane will be take people to places they want to be. And I wanna walk in the airport in the pilot uniform, with the dark coat and hat, looking cool and all.
"Singapore Changi airport Control tower, SQ 030 B777, requesting for landing, runway 02L."
"Permission to land, runway 02L, wind conditions 20km/h northeast."
"Roger. Landing. SQ030 landing runway 02L"
"I have control."
"Minimum"
"100"
"50"
"30"
"20"
"10"
"Landed"
2. Law- Have you ever seen people being seriously bullied for something they did not do? I am not talking about school bullying. Those are trivial and unimportant. I am talking about people who suffer injustice in society, people are suffer because they are bullied. I want to represent these people. Which is why, if I ever become a lawyer, I want to specialise in ligitation. I want to free the innocent. Ok, this sounds good, but is it really possible? Non. Nan des. No way. Bu ke nen. In law, cheating lawyers are as common as nitrogen molecules in air. And they stink. They cheat to win big bucks for their bald fat executive clients who pay them by the hour. And I wanna fight these useless lawyers and their faggot clients. How I wish I could be the prosecutor doing the TT Durai case. I am gonna serve some real justice. And I wanna walk out of the supreme court, with my client beside me, in a nice black suit and neat tie, announcing to the media that the innocent has been acquitted, and that justice have been served. How nice.
3. Academics- If I ever come a lecturer, I wanna be an outstanding one teaching geography. And I want to specialise in vulcanology and seismology. This is because I want to save lives. Nevado del Ruiz, Columbia. At around 9pm on November 13, 1985, the great volcano erupted, engulfing the nearby city of Armero with its powerful mudflows. 23000 people were buried alive. Only a few weeks earlier, scientists predicted the eruption of the volcano. somehow the report was shelved. Yet a simple evacuation could have saved thousands. On the ruins of Armero, volcanologists vowed "never again". I want to be part of the team that will study such hazards and save people from grave peril.
4. Public service- I want to serve the country and its people. Ok, maybe this job doesnt look as glamerous, but it is an important one.
So how? If I cant even pass the A levels, I can forget all about it all.
P.S. This is, I think, the first time I used vulgarities in my blog.
"We'll carry on." Note the hard work the video maker has put into making this video, it looks as though the lions were singing. Thanks to DrewTheWolf from YouTube.
Monday, May 14, 2007
Saturday, May 12, 2007
Summary of the week
I havent blogged about political issues for a loooong time already. I realised the need to shut myself up sometimes to prevent unnecessary nonsense. For instance, I dun want to piss off anyone from the top.
So, I shall sum up my very very busy week in a few paragraphs. Quite interesting, though tiring.
Monday- sian.
Tuesday- Had debates. Motion: This house believes in the legal recognition of same sex marriages. I was first speaker for propo. Results not out yet. Super funny debate. Sam Soh (from opp):" Homosexuality is a mental illness" Parvati (whispering in my ear):" He's sick lah."
Wednesday- Geog test. Evonna and I were discussing and trying to predict questions in the morning at the lodge. Everyone thought I was crazy when I explained the negative impacts that Royal Dutch sheel brought to the Niger Delta.
After the test, I was surrounded by Yong Jing and the rest of the 6Q guys in the toilet for spamming my essay. Not that I wrote a lot. Anyway they threatened to cui (whack) me if I ever spammed my geog essays again. lol. Was quite scared though. Couldn't pee though i wanted to. Friendly intimidation is still intimidation.
After lunch, IHC bridge. Yu Jun and I were quite emo-ed, but still managed to play quite well lah. Give us some credit lah! Sure we got lucky, but hey man, can you feel for two young men who were unlucky for the past few weeks in other aspects of life? So, in the end, HH clinched first, BB 3rd. YJHC got indv 2nd though. Something to cheer up two ragged souls.
Thursday- Physics test. Lets wait for the results before I continue.
Friday- GP essay. Math retest (stop suanning). Did something stupid after school. Dance nite. Quite nice lah, though I didnt quite understand the moves. Full marks for the performers though. Effort was there. As a previous performer, you can fell for fellow performers. Great music though. Footloose is seriously good classic stuff.
Sat- UN association of Singapore seminar. what can i say? interesting but i somehow fell asleep? Great insights though.
Now- Blogging.
So, I shall sum up my very very busy week in a few paragraphs. Quite interesting, though tiring.
Monday- sian.
Tuesday- Had debates. Motion: This house believes in the legal recognition of same sex marriages. I was first speaker for propo. Results not out yet. Super funny debate. Sam Soh (from opp):" Homosexuality is a mental illness" Parvati (whispering in my ear):" He's sick lah."
Wednesday- Geog test. Evonna and I were discussing and trying to predict questions in the morning at the lodge. Everyone thought I was crazy when I explained the negative impacts that Royal Dutch sheel brought to the Niger Delta.
After the test, I was surrounded by Yong Jing and the rest of the 6Q guys in the toilet for spamming my essay. Not that I wrote a lot. Anyway they threatened to cui (whack) me if I ever spammed my geog essays again. lol. Was quite scared though. Couldn't pee though i wanted to. Friendly intimidation is still intimidation.
After lunch, IHC bridge. Yu Jun and I were quite emo-ed, but still managed to play quite well lah. Give us some credit lah! Sure we got lucky, but hey man, can you feel for two young men who were unlucky for the past few weeks in other aspects of life? So, in the end, HH clinched first, BB 3rd. YJHC got indv 2nd though. Something to cheer up two ragged souls.
Thursday- Physics test. Lets wait for the results before I continue.
Friday- GP essay. Math retest (stop suanning). Did something stupid after school. Dance nite. Quite nice lah, though I didnt quite understand the moves. Full marks for the performers though. Effort was there. As a previous performer, you can fell for fellow performers. Great music though. Footloose is seriously good classic stuff.
Sat- UN association of Singapore seminar. what can i say? interesting but i somehow fell asleep? Great insights though.
Now- Blogging.
Thursday, May 10, 2007
Ok. I shall try blogging with this screwed up blogger. Obviously I have not blogged for 1 week, which is quite long. stupid blogger is seriously screwed.
If my life could turn out my way, I wish it turns out my way. Firstly, I graduate with good results, which gets me into flying school. From flying school, I get promoted to be a first officer, then captain of a nice aircraft like A380 or B777. But I think by that time the B777s will be replaced by B787s.
Then after i retire after something like 10,000 flight hours, I will go into sailing. At this time I should be around 40. Not too old. I will buy a nice sailing vessel and sail around the world, visiting exotic ports. Get some sun, a nice tan, visit beaches (dun think dirty). How nice. Maybe I will go sailing with Zhuang, a 'sort-of' potential skipper of uniquely singapore.
After 5 years of sailing, I shall stop sailing. Sailing too much is bad for health. You drink too much alcohol when you sail. seriously. And you pick up smoking. which was what my grandfather did when he sailed. he smoked and he drank. Beer, rum, whisky, brandy, stout. XO and Johnnie Walker. But never wine. Wine and cocktails and those colourful stuff in fancy glasses are for sissies. Real man drink real stuff.
At 45, I shall enrol into law school. Very nice. I shall specialise in criminal law, open a private firm, earn not too much but I will be happy slamming tables and throwing files around. Need to protect the innocent, ya? Need to blast those rich lawyers who get their juniors and suborbs to write stuff for them, and earn a shit lot for carrying their names. Need to inflict some damage on their fat egos.
After 10 years of praticing law, I shall venture into academics. Get a phD. very nice, being a lecturer. Do research, shape young minds, share my life story. How nice.
Then after all that work, time to rest in peace. Maybe travel the world a bit more before dying. Provided the world still exists. Global warming will kill us all.
If my life could turn out my way, I wish it turns out my way. Firstly, I graduate with good results, which gets me into flying school. From flying school, I get promoted to be a first officer, then captain of a nice aircraft like A380 or B777. But I think by that time the B777s will be replaced by B787s.
Then after i retire after something like 10,000 flight hours, I will go into sailing. At this time I should be around 40. Not too old. I will buy a nice sailing vessel and sail around the world, visiting exotic ports. Get some sun, a nice tan, visit beaches (dun think dirty). How nice. Maybe I will go sailing with Zhuang, a 'sort-of' potential skipper of uniquely singapore.
After 5 years of sailing, I shall stop sailing. Sailing too much is bad for health. You drink too much alcohol when you sail. seriously. And you pick up smoking. which was what my grandfather did when he sailed. he smoked and he drank. Beer, rum, whisky, brandy, stout. XO and Johnnie Walker. But never wine. Wine and cocktails and those colourful stuff in fancy glasses are for sissies. Real man drink real stuff.
At 45, I shall enrol into law school. Very nice. I shall specialise in criminal law, open a private firm, earn not too much but I will be happy slamming tables and throwing files around. Need to protect the innocent, ya? Need to blast those rich lawyers who get their juniors and suborbs to write stuff for them, and earn a shit lot for carrying their names. Need to inflict some damage on their fat egos.
After 10 years of praticing law, I shall venture into academics. Get a phD. very nice, being a lecturer. Do research, shape young minds, share my life story. How nice.
Then after all that work, time to rest in peace. Maybe travel the world a bit more before dying. Provided the world still exists. Global warming will kill us all.
Tuesday, May 1, 2007
Things that will make me happy :)
1. Man Utd going through to Champs League Finals after beating Milan on thursday.
2. Man Utd beats man city this weekend, Chelsea loses to Arsenal at the same time.
3. Man Utd beats Chelsea at the new Wenbley on the FA Cup Finals.
4. No tests. Or maybe passing with flying colours. Hehe, fat hope lah.
5. A nice long holiday to somewhere faraway. I want to sail, scale mountains, hike, bike, and fly.
6. Having a drink with friends.
7. Having a day to slack. Make that a week. No no a year.
8. Having lots and lots and lots of money.
9. Finding a bottle that will release a genie who grants me wishes when I open it.
10. A nice meal.
2. Man Utd beats man city this weekend, Chelsea loses to Arsenal at the same time.
3. Man Utd beats Chelsea at the new Wenbley on the FA Cup Finals.
4. No tests. Or maybe passing with flying colours. Hehe, fat hope lah.
5. A nice long holiday to somewhere faraway. I want to sail, scale mountains, hike, bike, and fly.
6. Having a drink with friends.
7. Having a day to slack. Make that a week. No no a year.
8. Having lots and lots and lots of money.
9. Finding a bottle that will release a genie who grants me wishes when I open it.
10. A nice meal.
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